Exploring the Past of an Anxious, Depressive Person: Remembering Your First Bully from Decades Ago – Part 1

It would be ignorant of me to say that I am a product of bullying. There were many factors at play that shaped me into the person I am today. Bullying was just one of them and I will discuss these other factors at a later time but for now, this is a post dedicated to my first bully in an ongoing blog series. Please consider supporting me by commenting, sharing your stories in the comments, liking and sharing this entry if you feel you should. Continue reading “Exploring the Past of an Anxious, Depressive Person: Remembering Your First Bully from Decades Ago – Part 1”

The Shadow In Me

I’ve been at the wellness clinic for three days, the first two days I’ve actually been happy. I haven’t felt happier like that in a long time. I was outgoing, funny, I was participating, I made friends, made jokes and today, this afternoon, it all dropped in an instant, in one moment… Continue reading “The Shadow In Me”

I Can’t Fail Again

Don’t be so hard on yourself,” they say, (they, meaning the psychiatrists and psychologistswhen you fail or don’t get things right, but, having to constantly deal with the deterioration of your mind, having very real things happening up there that warrant expected failures. How can you not be hard on yourself when life always is?

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I am a Fucking Idiot

Things have not been going very well for me lately, at least not mentally. Sure there have been some things that have happened in my physical life, like not reaching target for work, my boss still being an absolute tool.

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Why You Don’t Watch Big Event Movies On Opening Day

I’ve already given my first impression thoughts of Avengers End Game and had planned to see it the following Sunday. Unfortunately, being the mega-blockbuster it is, it was still sold out and just way to busy, and considering it’s already broken and it’s set to break all other kinds of records so I won’t get peeved at it for drawing a crowd.

https://www.polygon.com/2019/4/28/18521292/avengers-endgame-box-office-record-all-time-biggest

I did, however, get a chance to see it again today and my thoughts have changed for the better but that will come in a separate post. I realize now, my enjoyment for this film was hampered by the crowd that I was with on opening day.

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