I was playing my usual selection of games recently and enjoying them as usual, for me Fallout 3 and New Vegas never get old. Also watching my brother playing Final Fantasy 13 was also all fine and good and everything that comes with that sort of game, etc. Then made supper and thought to myself although this meal I am eating is not a bad meal as I am not the worlds worst cook by any means but it is still nothing like my mother used to make.
It might be weird that I post this article just after posting The Accidental Troll but thanks to that article and the feedback that I’ve got I’ve realized that I am arrogant.
I’ve been thinking about my life and the experiences I’ve had. I’ve been arrogant all my life and been so wrapped up in my own self worth that I haven’t even realized it. I preach tolerance and acceptance when in fact I am part of the problem. In fact, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I am text-book arrogant.
Take The Accidental Troll for example. After the feud that happened on N4G I honestly thought I was in the right. That’s how arrogant I am. I heard the counter arguments but again I was so hell-bent on “I have done nothing wrong” that I just wouldn’t see the actual problem. As it was pointed out to me earlier that if I had to have changed my first comment to apologizing instead and ask how to change the image there would have been no hate. I replied in a dickish manner and in yesterdays article I used the excuses that I’m honest and blunt which is actually a cover for my arrogance. So in my arrogance filled ego I decided to write an article blaming somebody else and playing the victim. That’s also text-book by the way. If somebody calls an arrogant person out on something sometimes they play the victim in order to seek approval from their friends. I guess in a way to make themselves feel better about the incident. That is exactly what I did. My friends supported me even though I was wrong but I mislead them into thinking that I was in the right. I also think that I posted that article because my ego is way to big and I just didn’t want to accept that I was wrong.
I’m a short guy with limited world experience. I live in my perfect world and I find that people who show me up in front of my peers are immediately moved into enemy status as they then threaten my very existence. I can’t accept defeat and I hate being ignored when I present something to someone that I think is worth their time. I’ve said it a lot in this article but this is text-book arrogance possibly mixed with Small Man Syndrome.
I’m not going to remove that article, in fact I want to leave it up here as a reminder to myself. I need to remember this feeling for the future.
This little experience has really opened my eyes and there are plenty of examples that I could use from my life that prove that what people have said about me is true.
I apologize to everyone who I mislead and to the people on N4g, I realize that I was wrong and I will do better in future. More specifically I would like to apologize to GribbleGrunger for my dickish comment and thank Admiralvic for beating the obvious into my head and for “taking me down a peg or two”.
So, until next time